Tuesday, January 31, 2017

My Heart Aches

A Journal entry from October 22, 2015

My heart aches
Lonely, thirsty sadness

On the brink of another 
loss of heart

As another dream 
slowly rips apart

I need a bigger and better story
than the one I currently inhabit.
"You who have made me see many troubles and calamities will revive me again; from the depths of the earth,You will bring me up again.You will increase my greatness and comfort me again." (Psalm 71:20-21 ESV)
I am the son who ran
I am the son who stayed

Is this how Moses learned humility?
Is this how Joseph's blessedness got from his coat into his bones?

Lead me to a bush burning
Redeem my life from the pit.

They found in God
a story big enough to live!

Boundary lines beyond
The borders of their sorrow.

God-with-us: The Way, The Companion, The Comfort

The great ones learned to receive
obscurity, loneliness, and insignificance
as teachers and friends

I'd rather be ripped apart by love
than held together by what I can control.