Wednesday, August 30, 2006


My Dad is on the last few days of his 3 year fight against cancer. I am trying to process a myriad of emotions and issues that arise in the face of his death. He has stopped waking up and eating; he's been in a palliative care unit in Seattle for the last two weeks.

I have never lost someone in my immediate family, so I am feeling new feelings of grief and sadness. For most of his life we were never close. The last 6 months have seen a change for the better, as I have tried to follow the Lord's leading down a path of obedience, forgiveness and reconciliation with my Dad. The way God has turned my heart toward my Dad and step-Mom in the last few months is nothing short of remarkable.

The fact that he is trusting in Christ has brought me great comfort. It is difficult to acknowledge though, that he and I have had our last conversation this side of heaven.